Pride Manifested

I have the unfortunate previllege of knowing someone who wants to have a family strictly for the sake of pride, but is not interested in taking care of the family, nor is interested in the welfare of the family. Such a person, in my flesh deserves the harshest condemnation, but when I think about God and what He has done for us, I shudder and wonder. When we picture the word 'abuse', we often think of physical punishment, an image of a scarred child with patchy skin from scalding hot water. Today I have an additional image; a family unit by law, but without love, excuses, only darkness, harsh words, shouting, accusations, threats, slander, void of attention, without communication, where the only valid order of system is presentation; in other words, strictly for show. Not only the family unit, but also the extended family unit; back biting, gossip, nested lies, manipulation of the naive, bribery, support for the abuser, to an extent, emotional blackmail. Emotional abuse is the term. I have the unfortunate previllege of experiencing the above, second hand, and like smoke from tabacco, its equally potent, and in this case emotionally potent. I wonder the source of the state, how it all began; from the very choice of clothes to entice, from the vainity of appearance, from the lust of the eyes and flesh, from the desire to be like everyone else, from the desire to prove adulthood, from the desire of wealth, from the desire to appear in control, from the desire to prove sanity, from the desire to please, from the desire to sound intelligent on a blog post. Is this not the pride of life? Perhaps my expression comes in the form of deliberate encryption, God will judge. Perhaps I am pretending to be humble now? God will judge that as well. Pride manifested. It's happening to all of us. Surrender is an easy word to say. It means even taking a hammer and be willing to smash the computer we're using now. If it's hard for the righteous to be saved, what will become of the ungodly and sinner?